Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year!

It's the last day of the year!  Last year had many changes for me, but all in all, I think it went well.  We are happy and settled in our new home.  We are healthy and happy.  We are together.  Would I have liked to have gained less (since this year was more gaining then losing), sure, but at the end of the day, i am happy and content with my life.  In 2013, I will do my best to get down lower and live a healthy life.

Ended this year with a 4 mile run.  Felt great!  I have been on and off with running due to injuries, but I have slowed my pace down and it seems like it's helping me not injure my knees or hips.  The goal for tomorrow is a long walk.

Had a gain at my weigh in, as expected (see yesterday!) but all in all, it wasn't so bad for the indulgences I had.  Already tracked my dinner for tonight and allotted for some champaign.  Low key night for my family, we like to stay in on New Year's.  We'll let The Kid celebrate New York New Year's and then off to bed for him.  I don't know if Mommy will make it to midnight!

I hope everyone has a happy & safe New Year!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

More Then A Number

I re-joined Weight Watchers on 12/3.  After our move in June, I floundered, and was too busy with all of our changes to find a meeting.  As I said in my first post, I knew I could do it on my own, knew that I could keep myself in check.  The reality of it is, I actually knew I couldn't.  Who am I kidding?  I am the poster child for meetings.  The feelings of accountability, the knowledge that I'm weighing in, the inspiration I gather from other members, all of that adds up to me being more accountable to myself.

Last week, I went to my mother's house for Christmas.  Missed my meeting, as it was on Christmas Eve, there were no meetings in their area, so i blew it off.  Subsequently, I ate too much, drank too much, sat too much.  I know this, I was aware of what I was doing, I did it knowingly.  Four days of big blanks on my Weight Watchers tracker.

Beginning Thursday, I started tracking again, exercising again.  I have felt good about it. This morning, I made the mistake of getting on my scale.  It didn't look good.  The first thing I wanted to do was go downstairs and eat a pie.  We don't even have a pie, but I wanted to eat it!  Then I reflected a little.  This isn't my 'usual' scale, I had already finished all my coffee and my breakfast, and at the end of the day, it's just a number on the scale.  I felt good this morning, I was feeling happy, healthy, skinnier.  I am not going to let that number dictate my mood.  I am certainly not going to let it dictate my eating choices.  So tomorrow I will weigh in on my usual scale, it may be good, it may be bad, but it won't define me.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Compulsory Introductory Post

Hi There!  I guess I should tell you a little bit about myself.  I'm a stay at home mom to a my seven year old son, The Kid.  I volunteer as much as possible in his class and at his school.  I really love to volunteer my time and help out wherever I am needed.  I hang out a lot with The Husband, who works from home, so we both tend to be home bodies and probably more co-dependent then either of us would like to admit!  We live in the San Francisco Bay Area and love it here.  We moved away about 7 years ago, but are so thankful to be back.  We both missed it here and will probably never leave now that we're back!  We love to travel and tend to go on a lot of adventures as a family.  The husband will book airline tickets if I even mention I want to go someplace!  I enjoy spending time with The Kid, reading, watching TV, and dinking around on the computer.  I enjoy running and walking, usually rotating them during the week, preferably in the outdoors, but if desperation strikes, in the gym.

So why am I here, a little bit of everything, whatever strikes my fancy, but mostly for support and connection with my weight struggles.  I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life.  I didn't have a weight problem in High School, I was athletic and kept myself busy.  However, once college hit, I began to gain and it has been a struggle ever since.  

When I was in my *gulp* twenties! I joined Weight Watchers and didn't look back for a long time. I lost 80 pounds, got fit and and kept it off for almost 5 years... Now, this should be my happily ever after, but if that was the case I wouldn't be here now.

Something crazy happened to me in my thirties, I fell in love, got married, moved (twice!), had a baby and became a stay at home mom. Suffice it to say, I didn't just wake up with those 80 pounds (and then some) back on my body. In 2008 I rejoined Weight Watchers and have been doing it on & off, mostly on, ever since.  Life is a marathon, not a sprint, right?  After my move, I stopped going to meetings, I figured I could totally do it myself, right?!?  Yeah, wrong.  I am currently down about 55 pounds from where I started, but I had been down about 75 pounds.  Recently (about 3 weeks ago), I was done with all my clothes being tight, uncomfortable, or un-wearoutable (real word).  So I found myself a meeting in my new town and I have been going back ever since.

I really want to make this change permanent, I am really enjoying the Weight Watchers 360 program and like how they are focusing on habits.  Lord knows I need to improve some of my habits!  I am happy that I caught myself before having to purchase larger pants.  I used to say I got heavy one size at a time...  instead of tying to fit into my pants, I would just buy new ones.  Not the greatest choice.  So I want to make this my hard stop and get back on focus.

I would love to get support, encouragement, & help on this and everything I share here!