Sunday, December 30, 2012

More Then A Number

I re-joined Weight Watchers on 12/3.  After our move in June, I floundered, and was too busy with all of our changes to find a meeting.  As I said in my first post, I knew I could do it on my own, knew that I could keep myself in check.  The reality of it is, I actually knew I couldn't.  Who am I kidding?  I am the poster child for meetings.  The feelings of accountability, the knowledge that I'm weighing in, the inspiration I gather from other members, all of that adds up to me being more accountable to myself.

Last week, I went to my mother's house for Christmas.  Missed my meeting, as it was on Christmas Eve, there were no meetings in their area, so i blew it off.  Subsequently, I ate too much, drank too much, sat too much.  I know this, I was aware of what I was doing, I did it knowingly.  Four days of big blanks on my Weight Watchers tracker.

Beginning Thursday, I started tracking again, exercising again.  I have felt good about it. This morning, I made the mistake of getting on my scale.  It didn't look good.  The first thing I wanted to do was go downstairs and eat a pie.  We don't even have a pie, but I wanted to eat it!  Then I reflected a little.  This isn't my 'usual' scale, I had already finished all my coffee and my breakfast, and at the end of the day, it's just a number on the scale.  I felt good this morning, I was feeling happy, healthy, skinnier.  I am not going to let that number dictate my mood.  I am certainly not going to let it dictate my eating choices.  So tomorrow I will weigh in on my usual scale, it may be good, it may be bad, but it won't define me.

2 comments:

  1. I guess it's a good thing you didn't have any pie in the house. ;-)
    Good for you for starting again. The scale will show a good number if you continue to do what your doing. I too didn't track over the holiday. I too have put on a couple pounds. I too am back to tracking. My WW meetings won't be back in session until the 7th, so I have a week before I have to weigh in officially. I hope that my tracking and working out between now and then show a maintain at the very least. I really am hoping for a loss. I am going to do everything in my power to make it happen.

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  2. Yes Paula, you are right! I guess I should be glad that I only had 4 blanks on my tracker, I remember prior to starting in 2008, i gained 20 pounds in one month... One month! So in 4 years I took it from 31 days out of control to 4... I guess that's progress, not perfection!

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